Pure Torture…

We are right smack dab in the middle of our TA(travel approval) wait. Those who have been in the adoptive process know what this means…

It means that I can’t think about anything but our little boy.

It means we are so close… soon, we are going to meet him, and I am having a hard time focusing on anything but getting to China. We are just sooo ready to hop on a plane and bring our sweet boy home.

It means that these last weeks, this waiting, feels like pure torture.

We are so close, and some days, most days, it feels so hard. I teeter between moments of pure bliss at the thought of holding our boy for the first time,  and then swing to moments where all I can do is pray for his little heart that will grieve the loss of people who love him and all that he knows. Knowing that our boy is just weeks away from having his world completely rocked makes my heart hurt…and some days, it’s just too much.

We are so close… and that’s just about all I can think about these days.


  1. foreversistersforeverfriends on March 21, 2013 at 2:52 pm

    Hang in there….it won't be much longer.The wait sucks!

  2. Musings from Kim K. on March 21, 2013 at 3:47 pm

    I remember all those same feelings. Thinking of you.

  3. Elizabeth Dahl on March 21, 2013 at 4:59 pm

    I'm thinking of you guys too — checking your blog every day to see if TA came yet. :-)Hang in there!

  4. Mochamama on March 21, 2013 at 9:09 pm

    Praying for you!Blessings,MimiWww.mimielmer.blogspot.com

  5. Paula on March 22, 2013 at 2:47 am

    It's an emotional roller coaster, isn't it?!? Hold on tight!!! It WILL happen and a couple of years down the road you'll be shaking your head and asking for time to slow down when you're celebrating HIS fifth birthday!!! He is precious! What a cute pic.

  6. jessica on March 22, 2013 at 3:33 am

    Oh my goodness that photo is just precious of your little Jackson!!! Thinking of you guys during this wait!

  7. J Willis on March 22, 2013 at 3:44 am

    Oh as we wait for LOA – I can only imagine the wait for thisTA step – I'm praying for him and you all during this wait and for preparing hearts for the upcoming events ;)God bless him and your family!!!!

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