Little M has a little round scar right next to her eye, and she has a little bullseye looking scar on one of her upper arms. She also has a little cluster of scars on the back of her neck, which are now hidden by her hair. This little cluster was fairly fresh when we got her, and was one of the first things we noticed when we gave her a bath for the first time. When we asked the orphanage about it, they said it was a heat rash.
When we got to Guangzhou and met all the other adoptive families, everyone we talked to said that when they asked about any scars or skin issue, they were all told that it was a heat rash.
Maybe it is a heat rash…little M does sweat quite a bit.
Maybe it’s not…we will never know. The little scars on her arm and next to her eye are not heat rash, and no one knew how she got them.
That makes me sad. Did she fall down? Was she bleeding? Was she sad or scared, and did anyone comfort her?
Seeing these little scars makes me wonder…about other scars. Does little M have scars on the inside, ones no one can see? Are they scars that would be hardly visible, and are nearly healed, or are they still fresh and raw? Are the scars inside healing? Are her needs being met?
Out little M has a smile that lights up room, and is cheerful and friendly, but I wonder if she is hiding the pain of fresh scars.
I will probably never know, at least not until little M has the language skills to talk about her feelings, and maybe not even then.
But it does make me wonder, seeing these scars on my little girl…