I cannot express how grateful I am for this girl, how thankful I am that we said yes, even though it seemed scaryâ€¦we hear people tell us often that they â€œcould never bring home a child that might dieâ€, or that â€œthat would be too hard for me.â€Â
And yesâ€¦ maybe it would. But friends, look at this girl. Yes. It is hard. It is scary, and it takes work, and it hurts. But it is also beautiful and full of love, and hope and every day when I look at her, I get to see the fingerprint of God.Â
No matter what, Every child is worthy of love, worthy of family. SHE is SO totally worth it. Because love always isâ€¦and hope? Hope always wins.Â
It is hard. Of course it is hard. Adoption is hard. Bringing home a child you know you might lose is hard. It will change you, it will wreck and stretch you… The surgeries, watching your child suffer, will hurt. Your heart will break over and over againâ€¦how can it not break you, when the heart beating in your babyâ€™s chest no longer beats in the chest of another motherâ€™s baby?Â
But maybe? Maybe it is ok to be broken, maybe it is ok to be changed. Maybe it is ok to let let your heart break over and over for someone. Maybe that is what love doesâ€¦
I promise, it is worth it.